UNteaching. UNparenting. UNnoyed.

YO YO YO Peeps.

Oh.My.Word. has it been a crazy day. Oh wait. I have three kids that I stay home with...EVERY day is crazy...Can I get an amen....AAAAMMMEEN!!! ;0)

Well...I've been battling blogging again for a while because sometimes I really want to blog about things, but I KNOW for a fact that they will end up offending someone. And I do NOT NOT NOT like to cause conflict or anything of that sort...but then again, this is my blog. Kind of like my diary. And hopefully if someone feels differently than I do on any certain topic, then they will I guess make their own blog and whine about it there. I don't know. Anyway. My desire is to be open and honest and share things that I feel led to share. Sometimes silly things, sometimes serious things, sometimes spiritual & sometimes all of those things wrapped up into one post.

Today is something a little more on the serious side. It's been on my heart a TON lately. And I am realllly hoping that I can get into words what my brain and heart have been feeling.

Well here goes. I spent another day feeling as if I was a dern broken record about the same old crapola over and over. "Immediate obedience" "obedience ='s blessings" "if it's not yours, don't touch it" "if you want something to eat, ask me first" "SIT DOWN ON YOUR BUTT IF IT'S MEALTIME...I MEAN IT...." (now....to really get into the mood if you so choose....repeat those last few phrases out loud over and over about 15 times...then you'll be ready to move forward with this post.) So my last blog was about that and why it's so important to be consistent in my opinion...and this particular post is kind of similar. Maybe I'll call it a piggyback post seeings how it just piggybacks on the last one.

So here are my thoughts.

Unparenting.

Yea. That's it. My mind has been blown by the idea of how ugly my kids can be sometimes. How disobedient. How they tell lies, argue, roll eyes, do the ghetto head bob at me with hands on hips, march off, ignore, hit, say hateful things....the list goes on and you obviously catch my drift. Now you can stop right there. I am NOT saying that my children are satans spawn. They are the farthest thing from it. It's just your typical kid stuff that every parent deals with. And if you don't deal with those things with your own kids, then you are LYING! jk. But for real though. It's just your normal every day annoying kid stuff. But here's the thing that I can't stop thinking about. WHERE IN THE JANK did they get all of that?! I mean...do you ever stop and wonder..."How did they learn that?" or "Do I really do that in front of them?"

Granted....I will NOT lie, there are some things that I do (that I shouldn't) that probably have rubbed off on my girls. For example, Chuck and I are TERRIBLE when it comes to having great manners. I mean like the whole farting, burping, pooping talk...yea we kind of just go with that in our house. WHAT?! It is what it is right?! So if you hear my kids saying inappropriate things such as UGHHH WHO FARTED?! or YUCK I smell diarrhea. You can say what you will about me & Chuck because they hands down learned that mess from us. WOOPS. But I'm talking about the big deal stuff ya know what I mean. I do NOT lie. I HATE lying. I have been super convicted over the past few years even about white lies. If I accidentally run out of Wal Mart with something that was hidden under the diaper bag and wasn't paid for....back in we go! Stuff like that. Can't do it anymore! If so...I wouldn't be able to sleep. I mean that. So where did my kids learn to straight up lie to my face. How do they even know what lying is right?!

What about hitting? Where in the world do my sweet little girls get off thinking that when they're angry or upset they can haul off and hit each other. NERRRNNTTTT. Not in my house. Not on tv. We don't watch ANYTHING violent on tv in front of them nor do we take them to WWF or play things like Mortal Kombat on play station. Granted I can't keep them in a bubble and I won't say they HAVEN'T seen hitting on tv at some points, but we don't instill that precious virtue into their minds as they grow up. Ya catching on yet. What's up with this backwards mess. Why do my kids start doing all this nasty stuff that we don't do or say at home.

It is the perfect example of our sinful nature. We are born sinners. It is what we do. From the time we start talking and walking....we sin. We just do. Parents don't even have to teach that stuff...how CONVENIENT. not. Makes me CRAZY!!! I have to bust my tail, yall know, to try and teach them right from wrong and they were BORN KNOWING SIN!!! Don't you hate how backwards that seems. Wouldn't it have been so much darn easier if we were all born doing right? and then the wrong things they don't "get" so we don't have to teach them! Then they wouldn't even know what that junk was. But that's not the way it is.

God has entrusted precious lives into our hands as parents. And unfortunately it is our responsibility to at least attempt to UNTEACH them everything that they so naturally do. I have to unteach the meanness and the lying and the arguing and all of those yucky things. THAT IS SOOO NOT FAIR! I didn't teach them those things...why should I have to unteach them?! BLAHHH. Wonder if this is making sense to anyone else. Maybe so. Maybe not. But, I'll tell ya this much. God is good. He is doing the EXACT SAME THING WITH ME. yup. He is. I am a terrible student I'm sure. I sin and sin and sin. Unknowingly spit in His face over and over. But THANK YOU JESUS, He is consistent with me too. Because if He were not consistent in teaching me all of the right things, or if He just gave up on me, or if He just got sick of sounding like a broken record....then I would live a life in hell. Guaranteed. I would be a HOTT MESS. I would SUCK.

I want to be like Him. I want to parent like He does. I want to offer that same consistent teaching to my kids that He does for me. I HATE IT. It is NOT fun. Not at all. And not fair....but I'll bet that's what He says as He parents us. hmmm....shoot.

Funny thing. God is still using that virtue of the month to teach me perseverance. "I can do it, even when it's tough." "I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength." I claim that promise. It's not easy to be a Godly mother. Definitely not for the weak. But it WILL be worth it. It'll be worth it when my girls, because I consistently untaught them the wrong things, one day choose the right things all by themselves. That is my desire. That is my goal.

Unparenting. oy.  So worth it for these little ladies....

ROUGH DAY!

So Chuck came home from youth tonight around 9 and I had all the girls at least trying to go to sleep. I like to do some serious "get the kids in bed so I can relax" on Wednesday nights while he is not home to get them all hyped up. Anyway, I decided that I would take a nice, childless/husbandless shower. That I would use my amazing new exhilarating, cooling face scrub (so what if I'm excited about face scrub.) and have some peace and quiet. Well obviously, since I can't ever sit still, or just plain take a shower, I had a knife trying to scrape away some of the old caulk so that we can start re-caulking some of the tile (did I spell that right? Do people even caulk anything anymore? I shouldn't know...I'm a girl) So he peeks his head into the door and what does he find but his wife, whom he knows had a really rough, long day, in the shower with a steak knife.....

lololol....

That's funny right. He was like, "Ummm babe, what are you doing in there with a knife?" To which I quickly responded that I was scraping some old caulk off the tiles while I showered.... #WHODOESTHAT?! LOL. What a relaxing shower huh?! Anyway...when I get really stressed out...I usually clean like crazy. The caulk scraping just happened to be what went down tonight.

I say all of this to talk a little bit about my day again. Not gonna go into any crazy details...but I will say this. It was one of THOSE days. You know the ones. Whether you're a teacher, parent grandparent or well anyone for that matter, it was one of those days in which nothing at all seemed to go well. Me and my big girls went round and round today. And I will tell you what...I feel like pretty much the crappiest mom in the world. There was a LOT of disobeying, lying, hitting, yelling, sneaking, more disobeying you catch my drift. And any parent or teacher knows that those kind of days will plum wear you out and make ya wanna QUIT. Well that was me today (and no really I promise that's not why I had the knife in the shower....it was and never will be THAT horrible!)

I felt as if I was getting onto the girls constantly. Matter of fact, I was getting onto them constantly. For what seemed to be the same things I always get onto them about. Big things and little things. And so by the end of the day we were all 3 just pretty much worn out. They were tired of getting scolded and I was guilty for being a lame-o mom. BUT THEN.....

I remembered our "We Choose Virtues" word of the month. It just so happens to be perseverance. The definition of perseverance that our family is memorizing for this month is, "I can do it, even when it's tough." With the correlating scripture being Philippians 4:13 "I can do all things through Him who gives me strength." "Awww well isn't that sweet you're teaching your kids about perseverance." One might be thinking right about now. HA HA...Not quite the case today. God used that specific virtue to ENCOURAGE ME in what I was doing. I'm sure He was not encouraging me for the times when I became impatient or lost my cool, but I know without a shadow of a doubt, that at the end of a day in which I felt like a monster mommy, God was proud of me. WHATTT??!! Proud that you scolded your kids all day?!!!! No. I needed that encouragement through the word perseverance because it is HARD to raise your kids in a Godly home. In a backwards world in which most kids do the parenting. Where parents spend their days doing whatever the kid wants. Where kids are disrespectful and rude and well YOU know...you live in the same world I do!!!

Chuck & I obviously have chosen to live a Christlike life (even though we struggle and fail daily) and we have also chosen to raise our children according to a Biblical standard. Our prayer every single day with them is that we can be more and more like Jesus every single day. SO. Was it a long sucky day. Yes. But you know what....I am teaching my girls just how important it is that they obey. And not just obey....but to obey IMMEDIATELY. There's the kicker. I have NO DESIRE to sit around and tell my kids what to do 100 times over and over each day. I have every desire to ask them to do something once, and have them do it that very first time. I know they're 2 & 4. I know I have high standards. But I'm confident in that I am doing the right thing for me and for them, when I enforce rules. Mean or strict as I might sound. I desire that, because it's in God's word. It's how God parents us. He doesn't want to have to tell us things over and over and we just do it whenever we want. He wants us to obey immediately.

I want to have girls who are set apart. Who are confident in their faith. Who make friends that love Jesus. Who have no fear but of God Himself. Who have a servants heart. Who reach out to others to let their light shine. Who are respectful. Who marry men that love God more than they love them. Who, please tell me, is going to teach MY GIRLS those things. Who is going to invest in my little sweet angels to set those standards. ME! Daily, Chuck and I do as best we know how to teach our girls how to be more and more like Jesus. That is our responsibility as parents. We recognize that calling and have agreed to walk in it, as difficult as it is.

So here's my point. Life as a parent can't always be fun. Duh right? We can't always just play dress up and prance around then play barbies and build forts and live in a beautiful imaginary perfect world....dang that'd be awesome....but the reality of parenting is that it's up to me and my sexy bearded man to discipline our kids. To teach them. To train them up in the way that they should go, so that when they are older, they will not depart from those ways. And that's not easy when almost everything I teach them is disregarded in the real world. But...I can do ALL things through Him who gives me strength and power. Even raising up three women of God. I can't do that, but as I strive myself to be like God, He will in turn help me raise my little ladies. BE ENCOURAGED!!!

Galatians 6:9 And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up.

~MAXXED OUT MAMA

Here Goes Nuthin.

Well...here goes. Been far too long and what I have realized over the past year or so, is that this world of blogging or whatever has gone WAYYYY the heck over my head. I'll tell you this much. My blog will more than likely never have cool buttons on the side. Or links to other awesome mom blogs, or really anything cool at all except maybe a fun background if I can get that rigged up...but anywho...let's put it this way...It ain't gonna be froo froo. Ain't nobody got time for that. ;p It's gonna be  my post. That's it. Just my post. I will probably never become one of those fancy bloggers but that's okay with me. Because my blog is usually just to dump out whatever is in my crazy brain anyway.

So here's whats been on my brain today.
*Amelia spits up a DANG lot
*the dog REEKS
*dog to pet smart for bath and nails clipped
*JulieAnne has GOT to quit wearing swim soups under everything or not whatever
*Wonder if Kennedy will ever quit sucking her lip? Oh well.
*TCTC is gonna be really fun this weekend
*Wonder if Chuck is ever going to shave his beard...or his dreads...probably not. He's so hairy.
*I should really put those 5 loads of laundry away
*DON'T FORGET BALLET AT 5
*The girls have GOT to learn to be nicer to each other...how can I help them do that??
*School starts back tomorrow...woop.
*I wonder if Amelia will ever take a bottle....yikes....my poor body :/
*I REALLY need an anniversary date....long overdue. One week overdue to be precise.
*What if I got pregnant again right now....AHHH!!! note...TAKE BIRTH CONTROL
*Really gonna miss dad when he goes to OK for 6 months
*Wish all my friends and their new babies lived closer
*To keep Common Sass or totally erase it from the universe...
*Should I delete all my social media junk or leave it...hmm....
*Wish the girls had a playroom
*Wish I had a craft room
*Just be content with what you have Rachel!

Okay I'm gonna stop there. See aren't you glad I started blogging again. Is anyone else stressed out or just a little sweaty in the arm pits just by reading a couple of the things I thought about today...lol. This is however NOT what I'm usually going to blog about...but tonight...it's how I felt like jumping back into it.

I will say this, and I mean it very humbly, often times I TOTALLY want to just out of the clear blue sky delete EVERYTHING. I mean it. Common Sass (my little FB business), instagram, FB, twitter, all of it. BUT, every now and then I am utterly and completely blown away by someone that I hardly even know or don't even know at all, who messages me or emails me about something that I posted up at some point that challenged them or encouraged them or made them laugh or something of that sort. And then I realize, that God has truly blessed Chuck and I. We are both CUH-RAZAY. And we know it. We're okay with it :) But He also allows us to be an open book. We put our entire life sometimes out there for people to read and see. And we understand that by doing that, God is using us. Because as weak as we are, and as imperfect sinners we are, we are willing. We desire to be servants for His kingdom here on earth. And for us, a lot of times allowing others to see who we really are in Him is how he uses us the most.

My blog always has been and will continue to be, a way for me to share with others what He is sharing with me. Or maybe it will just be a window into our cute, tiny little home so that you can watch our crazy life like it's a Hallmark movie or something! lol. I have lots that I want to share. I want to be used by God and I want to be used BIG! Blogging is one of those ways that I think He can use to reveal Himself to others through me :) So....WELCOME BACK ME! Spread the word that I'm back....this is gonna be good :)

peace.