Oh.My.Word. has it been a crazy day. Oh wait. I have three kids that I stay home with...EVERY day is crazy...Can I get an amen....AAAAMMMEEN!!! ;0)
Well...I've been battling blogging again for a while because sometimes I really want to blog about things, but I KNOW for a fact that they will end up offending someone. And I do NOT NOT NOT like to cause conflict or anything of that sort...but then again, this is my blog. Kind of like my diary. And hopefully if someone feels differently than I do on any certain topic, then they will I guess make their own blog and whine about it there. I don't know. Anyway. My desire is to be open and honest and share things that I feel led to share. Sometimes silly things, sometimes serious things, sometimes spiritual & sometimes all of those things wrapped up into one post.
Today is something a little more on the serious side. It's been on my heart a TON lately. And I am realllly hoping that I can get into words what my brain and heart have been feeling.
Well here goes. I spent another day feeling as if I was a dern broken record about the same old crapola over and over. "Immediate obedience" "obedience ='s blessings" "if it's not yours, don't touch it" "if you want something to eat, ask me first" "SIT DOWN ON YOUR BUTT IF IT'S MEALTIME...I MEAN IT...." (now....to really get into the mood if you so choose....repeat those last few phrases out loud over and over about 15 times...then you'll be ready to move forward with this post.) So my last blog was about that and why it's so important to be consistent in my opinion...and this particular post is kind of similar. Maybe I'll call it a piggyback post seeings how it just piggybacks on the last one.
So here are my thoughts.
Unparenting.
Yea. That's it. My mind has been blown by the idea of how ugly my kids can be sometimes. How disobedient. How they tell lies, argue, roll eyes, do the ghetto head bob at me with hands on hips, march off, ignore, hit, say hateful things....the list goes on and you obviously catch my drift. Now you can stop right there. I am NOT saying that my children are satans spawn. They are the farthest thing from it. It's just your typical kid stuff that every parent deals with. And if you don't deal with those things with your own kids, then you are LYING! jk. But for real though. It's just your normal every day annoying kid stuff. But here's the thing that I can't stop thinking about. WHERE IN THE JANK did they get all of that?! I mean...do you ever stop and wonder..."How did they learn that?" or "Do I really do that in front of them?"
Granted....I will NOT lie, there are some things that I do (that I shouldn't) that probably have rubbed off on my girls. For example, Chuck and I are TERRIBLE when it comes to having great manners. I mean like the whole farting, burping, pooping talk...yea we kind of just go with that in our house. WHAT?! It is what it is right?! So if you hear my kids saying inappropriate things such as UGHHH WHO FARTED?! or YUCK I smell diarrhea. You can say what you will about me & Chuck because they hands down learned that mess from us. WOOPS. But I'm talking about the big deal stuff ya know what I mean. I do NOT lie. I HATE lying. I have been super convicted over the past few years even about white lies. If I accidentally run out of Wal Mart with something that was hidden under the diaper bag and wasn't paid for....back in we go! Stuff like that. Can't do it anymore! If so...I wouldn't be able to sleep. I mean that. So where did my kids learn to straight up lie to my face. How do they even know what lying is right?!
What about hitting? Where in the world do my sweet little girls get off thinking that when they're angry or upset they can haul off and hit each other. NERRRNNTTTT. Not in my house. Not on tv. We don't watch ANYTHING violent on tv in front of them nor do we take them to WWF or play things like Mortal Kombat on play station. Granted I can't keep them in a bubble and I won't say they HAVEN'T seen hitting on tv at some points, but we don't instill that precious virtue into their minds as they grow up. Ya catching on yet. What's up with this backwards mess. Why do my kids start doing all this nasty stuff that we don't do or say at home.
It is the perfect example of our sinful nature. We are born sinners. It is what we do. From the time we start talking and walking....we sin. We just do. Parents don't even have to teach that stuff...how CONVENIENT. not. Makes me CRAZY!!! I have to bust my tail, yall know, to try and teach them right from wrong and they were BORN KNOWING SIN!!! Don't you hate how backwards that seems. Wouldn't it have been so much darn easier if we were all born doing right? and then the wrong things they don't "get" so we don't have to teach them! Then they wouldn't even know what that junk was. But that's not the way it is.
God has entrusted precious lives into our hands as parents. And unfortunately it is our responsibility to at least attempt to UNTEACH them everything that they so naturally do. I have to unteach the meanness and the lying and the arguing and all of those yucky things. THAT IS SOOO NOT FAIR! I didn't teach them those things...why should I have to unteach them?! BLAHHH. Wonder if this is making sense to anyone else. Maybe so. Maybe not. But, I'll tell ya this much. God is good. He is doing the EXACT SAME THING WITH ME. yup. He is. I am a terrible student I'm sure. I sin and sin and sin. Unknowingly spit in His face over and over. But THANK YOU JESUS, He is consistent with me too. Because if He were not consistent in teaching me all of the right things, or if He just gave up on me, or if He just got sick of sounding like a broken record....then I would live a life in hell. Guaranteed. I would be a HOTT MESS. I would SUCK.
I want to be like Him. I want to parent like He does. I want to offer that same consistent teaching to my kids that He does for me. I HATE IT. It is NOT fun. Not at all. And not fair....but I'll bet that's what He says as He parents us. hmmm....shoot.
Funny thing. God is still using that virtue of the month to teach me perseverance. "I can do it, even when it's tough." "I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength." I claim that promise. It's not easy to be a Godly mother. Definitely not for the weak. But it WILL be worth it. It'll be worth it when my girls, because I consistently untaught them the wrong things, one day choose the right things all by themselves. That is my desire. That is my goal.
Unparenting. oy. So worth it for these little ladies....
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